We had gone toe-to-toe and I'd been out-thought and out-fought by the AI. I had lined up spearmen, archers, lancers and axemen against a fairly evenly matched foe. This is the core of Total War: Attila, which delivers a very real emotional attachment to unfolding and fast-moving top-down battles between a dozen-or-so formations of military units. My cavalry was, regrettably, already spent.
At a crucial point in a massive battle, my infantry had lost its nerve and turned tail.
This was me, yelling at my PC screen at the end of a Total War: Attila battle that, as you may be able to tell, hadn't gone well.